Imminent Loneliness

[Brosauce]

Hello.

This is a pretty late introduction but I thought I might as well share my life as a 15 year old British Asian kid thats been lonely for the past couple of years. So first of all I go to Secondary School and I'm in Year 10 not doing any GCSEs this year. I am a vey quiet person but also extremely kind and polite. My two older brothers and sister do not live with me. Two are married with children and one has gone to Malaysia as a successful buisness man. My house is to be rebuilt to a modern state so I will be probably moving to my brother's house far away from the school so I will have to take the bus.

So I used to hang out with two guys who actaully know about Shenmue but do not like the game very much. This is pretty much when we became freinds and always hang out with each other during lunch hour. BUT what happend was, they thought that I was untrustworthy and that I was talking behind their back about them and so out of the blue one of the guys said to me that we're not friends anymore. Now... I have no freinds... Mabye its because of my unibrow.

Here's my problem however. All these stupid kids in my school really take the piss and everyone thinks that there either a gangster or are better than everyone else. Trust me, I believe that everyone is equal no matter how you look. Now I am a very lonely person. At break time and lunch I do not hang around with anybody at all. Worse yet the f****** playground is being rebuilt too so now I look like an even bigger loner. All I do is stand by myself in the same area and I hate it, I look like a loser. When I eat I feel so weird and just very lonely. There are so many different types of people in school I encounter everyday.

There's this one guy in school who is super handsome apparently and gets all the girls, he looks a bit like Ryo Hazuki and is tall but I also look like Ryo I guess. This guy, I would really like to hang out with but I'm way out of his league.

Of course I'm a big Shenmue fan thanks to my brother who played it when it first came out and I love listening to video game music, especially Shenmue.

By the way, the Shenmue track "Daily Agony" is probably the best way to describe my life, in fact the title of it is spot on.

The other place where I posted this @http://banditsghetto.forumcity.com/viewtopic.php?p=154189#154189

So what should I do guys? Any suggestions?

[Sonikku]

Poke'mon.

[Flatlandaniel]

Lift weights, grow a huge-ass beard, and shave your head.

[south carmain]

Are you asian-british or asian-british. Pretty big difference between the 2.

[Thief]

Find ways to improve yourself, both physically and mentally, and join some sort of extra-curricular activity. All it takes is putting yourself into situations in which you have to interact with others and you'll be sure to make friends. Sorry you're feeling lonely.

[Brosauce]

Are you asian-british or asian-british. Pretty big difference between the 2.

British-Asian. Born in the UK, Parents from Asia.

Thanks for your wise advice people. I do respect elders unlike other kids these days. Also did I mention that I posted this on another gaming forum just a little edited?

[south carmain]

Yeah but british-asian or british-asian. I mean the 2 are completely different so you have to specify wherever youre british-asian or british-asian

[Brosauce]

You are confusing me. You're saying British-Asian and British-Asian. Dont you mean Asian-British and British-Asian? Those are both different and like I explained I'm British-Asian which is being born in Britain with Asian parents. Asian-British is the other way round.

[Flatlandaniel]

I think he's trying to ask if you are Asian-British Asian-British as opposed to being British-Asian British-Asian.

[south carmain]

Nope I meant what I said. British-asian and British-asian are very different even if they are both british-asian.

[Brosauce]

May I kindly ask how carmain?

[OL]

One is british-asian and the other is british-asian.
It's pretty cut and dry bro.

[south carmain]

^this. Thanks OL those were the exact words I was looking for. Couldn't have put it better myself.

[redline]

well i would recommend your local "mind" charity. they helped me - free therapy if your depressed.

http://www.mind.org.uk/

[Brosauce]

Therapy? Are you kidding me...