The very idea of no longer existing both utterly fascinates and confuses me (but doesn't scare me, strangely). For example, if you never existed in the first place, there wouldn't be anything - no consciousness, no frame of reference; nothing - but if you do exist, and
have existed, and have lived a life 'til death comes to you, what happens when you
no longer exist? To everyone else in the world, you no longer exist - you're simply no longer around as a physical being - but what happens to the part of you that both existed and verified your existence to yourself (i.e, your consciousness)? Surely it can't just disappear, can it? Consciousness exists within the mind, which exists within the brain, but once the brain is dead and gone, what happens then? I just can't rest easy thinking there's a big, fat full-stop at the end of a person's life that wipes their consciousness out of existence. We all know what it is like to exist, but to
not exist? How could we possibly ever know or feel such a thing? What happens after that?
I feel similarly about the state of the universe before it came to exist. For 'nothing' to exist, there must be something from which something
can exist within that so-called 'nothing'. There simply is no such thing as 'nothing' in this regard. By 'nothing', do people mean there was just a vast amount of black space before something came from 'nothing' and created all the stars and planets? Well, where the fuck did the black space come from, then? I don't think we'll ever find an answer to either, honestly. We can estimate for how long the universe has existed; what caused the stars and the planets to come to be; how many planets there are, but we will never
ever be able to say with absolute certainly what caused the universe to exist. If you're religious (which I am not), then God created the universe. If you're inclined towards scientific belief and evidence, the Big Bang created the universe. But what was there before then? What
caused the cause that led to the creation of the universe, and what caused the thing that caused the thing that caused the thing that created the universe, and so on? Infinity right there, brothers.
Unless nothing and none of you exist, and everything I've come to know in my life exists solely within my mind. Then where did I come from?...
Or maybe I'm just fucking nuts. I dunno