^^ no, but i don't care how you perceive it. (and if i was deriving pleasure from it, i'd say it the first time.)
i have ZERO sympathy/empathy for you.
apparently, you CAN do it on your own, many do, where's my/their shoulder to cry on?
where's my financial backing in time of need?
never existed in the first place.
i forged my way, shit work, but i did it on my own, and should explain why i won't conform to the societal norms.
all i did on this subject, was hold up a mirror. (aka: irony)
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there's a classic saying here: never call the alligator names until the nile is crossed.
don't shit where you eat...is another.
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only you can advise yourself.
if you have irl friends, consult with them, ask for any tips they have.
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one thing i've noticed in this world that holds some back, is THEM putting the duress on others, hanging on their word.
it's a flimsy excuse to not take the bull by the horns and DIY.
magick up the ideas yourself, and make em work.
that's how at least half this meager subsistence world manages, by their own wiles and initiatives.
other know folks. (and quals MAY help too?)
and the last, being the background/class.
if you're from a wealthy background, it can work to jump the queue, you can literally have fuckall going for you, but get a job based on the sheer virtue of stock. (< i just pointed out the obvious there)
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oh, i'm free of guilt, it serves no useful purposes, nor does taking joy from this.
the truth is, it's far from funny, but sad as fuck!